Bit of background, and hi ofcourse. First, apologies for the username. I think I may win the award for the worst username on the board. Looking forward to the ceremony where I win the award for member least representative of their username.

First off Hi to everyone, great board here, so great I thought Id stop lurking and get involved a little. Im 43 and last April I was just over 20st, fat, lazy, fed-up and pretty much a disappointment to myself. Today Im 17st with some nice gains. Started Test in the April last year and after a of weeks went all in and began using MT leangain, couple of weeks later I added in more MTtren. Was pinning 1ml of leangain and adding in 100mg of Tren to it ED. Dumb yes, did it work, hell yeah, the weigh fell of and I felt amazing. I don't recommend doing that but I didnt really know what I was doing, I just followed what I was enjoying, thought fuck it.

Eventually the sides caught up with me, not physically, all I suffered was a bit of acne on across my chest, no big deal. Ive been with my lady for nearly a quarter of a century so Im not looking to get out there. The libido went insane, we had, and still have a fuckin ball! Psychologically though I was a complete narcissist, put my lady though hell whilst I sorted out every little bit of bagage we had accumulated. In some ways it was bad, but I also cut a lot of dickheads from my life and now my lady and I know each other, warts and all and we still in love like the two kids who met and fucked on the first night. The fat weak fucker I was 18 months ago has been replaced by a kind, loving, loyal, strong man and father. The friends I have left, my kids and my lady are all I need. Only good energy in my life now.

I wont go into brands but after maybe six months of using Med-Tech gear I went on to try other brands. I made zero gains, pretty much zero weight loss. Wasted a shit load of money on bunk and under dosed gear. Month ago I tried MT anavar because I was sick of the PIP from other gear and wanted a break from pinning, which incidentally I used to love. That gave me the push to try orals, which I had avoided.

Holy fuck! I was back in the saddle. Two weeks ago I started Stanavar. 1 ED, Im going onto 2 ED today. The results are beginning to kick in just like the Tren did when I first started using that except I dont seem to have any sides, I dont really suffer with sides. Im leaning out again. Right now I take 50mg proviron, 75mg T3 and Ill be taking 2 Stanavar ED for the next 6-8 weeks. I also pin about 100mg of Test every 3 days or so. My body lets me know when it wants the Test. In 18 months Ive came off gear once for a week, hated it. I also take Modafinil every day. I take proviron pretty much constant, and T3, few little breaks here and there.

Ok so, to the point. Once Im done with the Stanavar cycle I would like to try a bulk. Ive always been cutting and even though I wont yet be at my target BF, Im fuckin bored of cutting. I want to try a bulk. If I lose some gains when I have to cut again, so be it. The bulk is a little based upon ego and Im fine with that, Im just sick of cutting.

More than happy to pin everyday but I would like to go for it with a bulk. Would like to keep my libido if possible but if I have to sacrifice that for a little while Im sure my lady will be happy to able to walk properly again for the time my libido drops a bit. Besides its not always about the cock is it. Is it?

Anyway, just thought Id say a big Hi to everyone here and get some advice from you guys. Love and peace.