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Cake binge not damaging. Looked at ingredients etc... 1500 kcal TOPs probably about 1000. Only had 540 beforehand
Just fill remains with whey protein.
Worst case is I gain muscle mass
No biggie
Back on track tomorrow!!
Did a 15 set leg workout so if I go 300-500 over today I just gain a small fraction of my legs back :)
Squatted 140 kg 5x5 only limited by pain in my si joint and it was fast.
After did 3x12 very narrow stance 80 kg.
Then 4x12 to fail leg ext and curls
Some calf raises too
Benched 100 kg 5x5 super fast and very easy!
90 s rest between sets
Followed by 80 kg 3x12 90 s rest between.
Then I got the 30 kg DBa and did 5x8 flat bench then incline bench. Some rope pulldowns to finish it off.
*sigh*
Got a bulk deal on mangoes 8 big onesfor £3.50.
Went hypo binged on 6 of them and almond butter.
5000 kcal probably.
New rule:
Nothing calorie dense in house
Buy food as is required per day ie 2000 kcal of food in house at one given time.
Ab pins gone.
Hmm. Ab pins are back but I have grown a tonne of lbm on my legs chest shoulders and tris.
Maybe my body is requesting the energy resources?
Visiting chiropractor today, hopefully fix that horrible SI joint pain!
Chiropractor noted l4-l5 is healing! Piriformis muscle healing too!
So happy
Might go get dunkin' donuts to celebrate ;) jks
3 months hard work and I ought to be happy
Also did some research...autistics such as myself have different gi tract and gut fauna....the result is products containing gluten and casesin have a very strong opiate effect on the brain.
Perhaps my body is making me constantly hungry because it is trying to heal? Also I have grown even taller recently clavicles and hips have widened too. Perhaps my body is just wanting to grow and heal?
Also been looking at testosterone's ability to prevent muscle wasting.
One guy dieted on just 800 kcal for 4 mos started at like 255 36% ended up at 10% losing 70 lbs ..by dexa lbm went from 149.1 to 150.3 on 500/w test
180 kg dl like the bar
Did 200 but stopped there due to not wanting to hurt my back, it was I'd say about rpe 6-7
Prior did 5x5 140 kg easy as hell then 3x1160 kg literally like the bar
After did a tonne of bb rows supersetted with chins then db rows then lat pull down then hammer curls
And for the first time in months and months my back is feeling super nice! No tightness no crunching no leg length discrepancies no left calve paralysis. Maybe stuff is on the up for me after such a period of misery?
Upon further research....
I really think this is the root cause of my binge eating disorder.
I notice I never 'binge' on typical "comfort foods" like chocolate, nutella etc but actually foods heavy in gluten and casein! Annndd it is usually triggered by a physical pain response. My cravings for stuff like Greek yogurt (not normal yogurt), quark cheese, French bread, pizza, phillidelphia and such is always when my back is in significant pain. Whenever it gets manipulated by a physio and it doesn't hurt the cravings stop regardless of calorie deficit or not.
Perhaps my brain is craving the opiate activities of these products to dull the chronic pain? I do notice that hwhen my diet is high inbthese products my pain tolerance is very high
Haha first time laying in bed in MONTHS where i can actually sleep on my right side and without a heatpad strapped to my back.
Lumbar spine feels super weird. It is like this weird fluid feeling inside my back...but it is really pleasant. Like some type of movement feeling and it feels like there is water running down the inside of my spine. Such a great day. First fun workout in multiple months. Had a fun bike ride.in t&e Sun and now.I get to sleep properly it seems for the first time in a long time.
Happy!
Now I'm more motivated and.not in pain if it carries on i will be Abe to cut calories lower because.I won't be thinking to myself "this hurts why am I doing this" as I train.
If I really pushed I could get this cut done in 8 wks if I really suffered. Could do 1350 kcal non training 1650 training 1800 once a week or so and my bmr won't drop hastily then.
Shoulders tomorrow!
So happy
Really great shoulder session! Because my leg length discrepancies are normalized now I can exert much more force on the bar because the load is level on my shoulders.
Did 75 kg 5x5 very easy then 90 kg x 1 like speed work on strict standing ohp. I then did 3x8 60 kg. Then dicked about on the Smith machine at a 90 degree then 60 degree incline for 3xf at 8-12 with 65 kg then did lots of sets of 5 with 25 kg dbs on the incline bench then lots of lat pulldowns simply because the feeling of my scapulas actually moving correctly felt outstandingly pleasant.
Really hope my back stays this way! It is like living in a different body!
A gopd -50 points taken from the depression scale I think.
Can't remember the time I was this pain free!
Felt so great about my pain free body I just Went and did a quick 2nd pump style shoulder workout!!
Ffs..
Riding my bike doing cardio....
Some dickhead driver decides to try and go in between an oncoming car and me on the bike. Veers away from the car into me. Clips my leg and knocks me off my bike.
Now my back is bad again.
Just sped off too.
Why does this shit always happen to me? Why do I always get a moment cruel taste of happiness then someone takes it from me.
I was right over on the left wearing a reflective jacket for fuck sake.
Lying in bed in pain.
Back to physio I suppose. Yet another £30 gone.
Found a cool unusually filing desert
Whey protein with psylium husk with a small amount of water in to make a mouse.
Tastes good and is legit satiating somehow
Eh. Woke up. Back isn't that bad anymore. Leg length discrepancies present once more.
Just will have to muscle through it and keep in mind fat loss will help it out.
Sigh.
Eh modifying diet
Just eat my favourite meal to keep me motivated 4 x a day which is 50 g oats, 60 g chocolate whey or pancake flav whey on top as a sauce, 75 g blueberries 1 tsp flaxseed oil and 1 egg white. Decent enough meal. Put some cinnamon on it too. Really nice.
5g-20 g phyllium husks between meals.
Edit: also loading up on selenium magnesium potassium and multi vits
Ordered chocolate cake flavour whey and cheesecake flavour whey too.
Multiple different tastes also I can interchange between raspberry and blueberries. If I want something savoury I'll make oats spinach bell pepper and lean beef.
Very cheap too
Traps arms chest and shoulders growing daily now.
Sweating 24/7
The small oat meals with phylium husk fibre between is doing me well! Hitting those cravings due to the wide range of texture taste and decent volume.
Ahhhh. Looked what my maintenance is likely to be after I cut...
1800. lol.
1800 entire calories for 10%.
Ahhh. tbf I can live off of 1800 long term. 1800 isn't a bad volume of food to be fair.
ALso doing some research into bodyweight setpoints. I know a BBer who is 50 years old...grew up obese as a kid and remained obese for his entire life up until about age 30. Got into BBIng.
Despite the fact he weighs 115 Kg at 8%-10% bodyfat he requires just 2500 kcal a day to maintain otherwise he gets fatter...has to go as low as 1000-1200 kcal to get into stage condition BUT he requires 4000+ to grow meaningfully. anything under 4000 causes him to grow slightly but just get fatter.
https://everythingedrecovery.com/lin...-point-theory/
it really seems once you are in a given bodyfat percentage range for a sustained peroid of time your body seems to always fight to get back to its fattest point
How interesting is that?
His metab is extremely scewed towards being obese
Ahh. Gone flat and bloated suddenly. Plus the psyllium husks is pushing my stomach out.
Look horrible.
Face all puffy.
Had some salt and 500 ml water. All full again now :)
Got to dial down the psyllium husks. Bloated and it has sucked all the water from everywhere into my intenstijes to process it making me dehydrated flat weak and small looking.
Think I'll treat myself to a small piece of salmon later :)
Didn't have salmon had chicken breast
50 g oats 1 egg white flax seed oil 100 g chicken breast 1 red bell pepper ginger lemon pepper
Meal of the goddess. Was very tasty.
Just prepped up my 4th and final bowl of oats and this time I am mixing a 50:50 ratio of birthday cake flavour whey and chocolate cake flavour whey together putting the 1 tsp flaxseed oil in that mixing itbjnto a mouse then putting in fridge to set. 100 g strawberry too.
Been following this low kcal diet now and strangely no hunger! Like none at all.
Vinigar in water is helping so much
Get hungry between meals
5-10 g p husk some vinigar water
Slam like half a litre bam appetite gone
Good arm workout
Rode to gym
Did 6x12 ez bar curls 4x10 hammer curls 6x8-10 Yates rows on the machine then 5x10 side laterals. 10 mins liss on cross trainer then rode back home.
M8 why don't you go for Keto diet?
It's very good for inflammation if you keep Omega3 fats high and saturated fats low.
I would go for a diet based on cod, walnuts, avocado, whey, omega3 pills, and at 2000 cals.
Come on m8 1800 cals for you are really too low!!!
Are you on AAS atm?
I would just stick on Lean Gain 3ml Week + 1,5ml Tren Acetate or instead of the Tren something that fucks you hunger, like... 50mg ed of Androl+50mg Winstrol.
You can even add 100mcg T3 and Clen!!
Come on i have seen you photos! You have a lot of good mass!! You can do that!! COME ON!
I tried keto and I just feel like I am dying on it
No energy also I get dehydrated feel like I am dying. Explosive power goes to crap and I cannot think properly. This seems to be working right now for me, except I get hungry before bed so I am now splitting my final meal up so I have the oats a few hrs before bed then the protein and fat which seems to keep me going well. When I get hungry I just look at those my 600 lb life people and I just go "fuck that" and slam some fiber and water lol.
I'd rather not use t3 again until I really do stall badly, panic attacks out the ass on it + rebound when you come off it anyway.
Adrol + winny sounds like a good idea actually
I am just on 250 test e 50 mg tren ace ED-EOD. I seem to get great results on low test, I have naturally low shbg..4 nmol/L lol.
I have added in some ephedrine in the morning, just 20 mg ED alongside black coffee with a little Stevia and vanilla extract in. Don't need clen for now. I have never used it might do one day.
Lost 1.5 inches off waist so far lifts are either staying same or improving slightly....
As for my good mass, unfortunately due to flying into depression again I ended up bedbound unable to do anything so a lot of it has gone. After this cut I'll probably weigh 150_160 lbs at 10% or something small but I'll be happy with that because it will take the pressure off of my damaged back. It seems to be healing so when it does heal I can just blast and get big once more.
I'd rather at the moment be skinny and lean and nimble agile etc on my feet than be big and in pain due to my current injuries.
50 mg adrol 50 win sounds good though!
Not bothered about being big, I just want to reestablish a lean body fat percentage and HOLD it for 6-12 months so it becomes my new setpoint
My setpoint is about 12%, I want it to be 8%.
Good day today. Hit 1650 kcal. Dropping fat so fast. Had the most amazing meal. Legit nice.
50 g oats, 100 g strawberry 2 egg whites 50 g chocolate peanut butter flavour whey set as a mouse in the fridge which I poured over the oats berries etc after I went and microwaved it with some chilli, cinnamon ginger and Stevia.
Absolutely divine.
Back and bis tomorrow!
Already did bis
So more bis
Lol
Can't sleep because ephedrine fml
Thinking 5x5 dl 5x8-10 bb row 5xf chins db rows 3x8-10 ez bar curls 3x8-10 hammer curls 3x8-10 rear delt flys 3x8-10
Might add in some triceps stuff like 2x10 dips and 2x10 db roll backs maybe.
Didn't sleep well so kept workout short and will do rest later
5x5 deads
5x8-12 rows
5x5 chins
4x8-12 db curl
Will go back and do my delt flys ez curls and hamstring curls later.
So depleted.
10 more weeks. I can do it.
370 kcal consumed so far today.
900 kcal consumed so far
going in for next workout after my 3rd meal brinign me to about 1200 kcal
will just be some rear delt flies, more chins, ez bar curls etc 30 mins LISS at 120-130 HR
Just hit final meal brining me to 1500 kcal on the nose
Had 3 omlette with chocolate fudge whey set in freezer poured on it. Stevia cinnamon a bit of vanilla.
Got a bit hungry and was craving bread but slammed some fibre craving gone. Read that the stomach being empty is what causes ghrelin to rise which causes hyperresponse of dopamine reward signal to food and perception of it. Keep stomach full all day with fiber means so ghrelin spike so no overactive limbic system demanding calorie dense food.
Wahey got complimented by a BBer today :) said I am leaning down and growing every time he sees me.
Good shoulder session.
3x5 strict standing OHP
6x12-8 Smith incline
4x8 rear delt files
4X8 side laterals
4x8 db chest flies
30 mins LISS now
This fibre and 20 mg ephedrine is making this so easy
Honestly I swear. Weighing all food....I am on 1500-1650 absolutely honestly on my life.... No cravings. Without the fibre I get hunger pangs and massive cravings but with it honestly I feel like I am above maintain wise with how free I feel like eating but I just feel bleh lol. Keeping the stomach full really seems to surpress ghrelin very well. This is how gastric band works too, makes the stomach smaller therefore less ghrelin production so you don't feel cravings.
Honestly magical. Being careful not to over do it mind, only taking in a teaspoon or two once or twice per day. Last thing I need is a Bezor in my intestines.