it must be you. you said it yourself, you look worse now then before. what would have to be inside the vials to make you WORSE? thats not possible. there is no steroid or any other compound that makes people worse. even if you take 100mg of test per week you are going to feel and look better, not worse. so i would for sure check your diet and other lifestyle habits as there is no steroid in the world that makes people look worse. even if you injected just water it wouldnt make you look worse.