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Powertard
954 posts · joined Jan 2015
Update:
It seems the past 3-4 days this compound has changed up a gear into full speed
Mood sides are apparent... Zero and I mean zero tolerance for bullshit. Quicker to snap and more likely to snap than being on 40-50 mg stenox a day but when I snap it is less severe. For example I was walking into co-op to get food and an overweight woman was waddling out as I was walking in so I stepped back, smiled and politely gestured for her to go first in a good mood. She looked at me and scrunched her face off and waddled at a greater pace past me and disnt say thankyou. I instantly flipped and just ahouted "THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME PAST!! HOW KIND!" in a really sarcastic tone and mutteree under my breath words such as "fucking bitch" for the next 20 or so seconds.
Empathy is at an all time low. I dont have the energy to spare other people's feelings at all. Eg my mum's friend's daughter kept asking me if her dress/makeup looked good looking for validation so I said bluntly and honestly "It looks okay, nothing I'd find stunning." to which point she got all upsey and angry. I held my head in my hands during her ranting then cut her off saying "Why are you looking for my validation? Surely what matters.is that you like it. I gave.you my honest.opinion, feedback, and you dont like it so why did you ask the question if you are going to get angry at a neutral reaponse. Fuck off."
Or somethibg like that. Obvioualy didnt go down well... Apparently she liked me now she doeant lmao... Like i give a shit
Just get aggitated at amall stuff like food not fitting.in fridge because aomeone crammed their shit in there careleaaly without using 1/8th of their brain and 10 s out of their day to put the itwms in an ordered way. Sorry I cannot type anymore about it bexauae it is pissibg me off.
Night sweats are horrendous now. Wake up stuck to the aheets. Had horrendous cramping last night. All sleep ia broken. Probably avaragjng 2 hrs then waking up for 10-30 mins then sleepibg another 1-2.. A total of 4.5-6 if I am lucky.
Appetite is beggining to decline
No lethargy since upping fluid intake.. Just tired.. I have to have a nap or two so I am rested
Strenght ia climbing. Maxed out the chest press machine for 12 slowww easy reps with two torn rotator cuffs, i can hardly train upper bosy until they are aurgically repaired. Going.to aim for a >400 bench.. Hopefully 450-500 raw.
Squat max has jumped up a predixtes 12.5-17.5 Kg in a few daya from 300 Kg to about 315 Kg belt only bellow parallel.. I feel the steenght really has taken off ib the past 3 days.. Immense jumps per session even at an elite level.. At least equal to 20-30 mg stenox
Also my skin and face have turned red