Literally cannot stop eating once I start unless I seriously pry myself away from all food. I have to pry myself away from food...no matter what it is. Was feeling hungry so I went to eat some carrots just to try and stop the feeling. Even raw carrots I have to pry myself away from or else I eat an entire bag of them...1 Kg of them easily. Of raw carrots.

It isn't comfort eating because I am not craving cake...chocolate etc all that shit but just ANYTHING. Get hungry go tunnel vision them BAM 500 g raw unpeeled raw carrots eaten.

It is ANY food. Fuck me even raw broccoli I found myself eating. I do not know what is going on. It is fucking HORRIFIC. Never satiated, always cripplingly hungry. Carrots...oats...whatever you eat you can eat and you are NEVER full.

Staying away from ALL chocolate and sweets. Seriously...I thought to myself "Hey, I could have some of my grandmother's rocky road cake for breakfast with my oats, it is only slice I'll be fine." Nope. Ate one slice and pried myself away from it...forgot about all that sugar in there so I go slightly hypo. 10 mins later 3 slices gone after I literally had to run out of the kitchen and sit on my hands.

As I say, literally any and ALL food. Any and all. Fuck I was even eating the dried up raw grains of rice left over from my parboiled white rice and chicken last night that were in the saucepan. Don't know what the fuck is happening. I hope it stops soon. I am tortured by this. Absolutely tortured. I try any food to keep me full and it just doesn't work. I am getting food cravings every 30 or so minuets now. 3 hrs and I have to eat something or I get an anxiety attack. It will be good food so I know my blood sugar isn't fucking up. 100 g raw carrot with 30 g light cheese and 150 g chicken breast with 50-75 g oats made with water with a dash of semi-skimmed milk on top and like a bit of alpen sprinkled on top as a desert. Just fucking ANYTHING to try and satiate me and keep blood sugar stable...2-3 hrs later torturous hunger.


Don't know what I am going to do if this goes on much longer....be fucking fat that is for sure.