For fuck sake. It went away for a little bit now it is back.

I am literally considering killing myself now if this goes on. The hunger pains are torture. I am in total anguish all the time now. I am just fucking fucked up from this mentally. It is just constant hunger... There is no break from this.

I am sitting on my ass due to gym being shut, being injured. I am TRYING to keep under 3000 kcal. Like legit TRYING. I mean am just eating the most voluminous food there is...oats...brown rice...what the fuck ever. I eat then right away just go for a walk or a drive just go outside no money so I can't fuck up and buy more food and just try and do something...anything. I mean ffs I am even just eating raw oats from the bag now just like a tiny scoop of them and chewing them just so the hunger pains stop.

This has to be more than EQ. This has to be some fucking weird disorder the stress in my life has triggered or something. Cannot deal with this now.

I just need this over. Making an emergency apt to the Drs and seeing if they can prescribe me propanolol or something. It has to be anxiety related or something I am just looking for answers now just desperate.